The Waiting Game.....

Well I am now back home from taking all the tests and samples for the doctors. I turned in my last saliva sample test yesterday. Right now its the waiting game. I don't like the waiting game....actually I HATE the waiting game! I can play the quiet game, a matching game, or some type of board game but not the waiting game. I feel like I've been waiting for years. I wish I had a magic wand to just go "POOF" here is your answer....your done! BUT....I  have to wait a while to see what  the Endocrinologist says about my test results.  Trying not to be hopeful and trying not to be let down. I did get results back from a bunch of tests that were taken. I have the MyChart app were I can sign on and see test results, messages, appointment times, and so forth. From what I can read from the test results they are coming back in the normal range. I do have a couple results with exclamation points next to them indicating that the results are out of the standard range but I'm not sure exactly what that means. Everything is still up in the air. I'm trying to be hopeful but with school approaching quickly its hard to keep my head up. I am very nervous as to what this school year will bring. I am not 100% back to normal (whatever normal is for me anymore) and that makes me nervous. Am I going to struggle physically like I did last year? When I do something, I like to put forth 150% effort into what I do but I still move rather slow and can't get up and down without some pain. I don't know if I am recovering slowly or if my body is in limbo from the Cushings. My fear is that all my tests results will show that I'm fine but once the true stress of teaching begins the Cushings symptoms will come back with avengence! I try to keep up with reading everything I can about Cushing's but I get no answers there. Only the same old stuff that I would think describes me as having Cushing's. However, I guess anyone can diagnosis themselves off the internet and still have it not be true. I just want to feel better and do the things I use to be able to do! Like sitting on the floor with my students and not worry about how I'm gonna get up! Or run around with my students without the fear of my feet hurting!! I'm tired of feeling lazy and want to regain the energy I had a year ago when I was running. When I was running it was so easy for me to get up in the morning. I was able to go up and down stairs quickly. I didn't yawn all day and had great days full of energy!! Where did that go and why is it so hard to get back? Well...I'm trying to hang in there and hoping to hear results sometime next week. For now I've "gotta keep my head up...oh oh..so I can let me hair down...eh eh...I know it's hard, know it's hard to remember sometimes, but I gotta keep my head up...oh oh...SING IT!!