Well it has been a over three weeks since my surgery and things are looking good. Ever since my stints have been removed life got much better. I'm still very tired but prefer being tired than not being able to sleep at all. I'm slowly getting my energy back...I just wish that when I do something, I didn't want to take a nap afterwards. My house is getting a bit tiring to look at. I want to go out but when I do I get bad headaches. So if you see me out and about and I look non-interested its because I am fighting a headache and the urge to drop down right where I am and take a nap! As you might know I am not a patient person so a part of me feels like "Hey! I had surgery so I should be able to run a marathon" (not that I ever could run a marathon before but I like to raise that bar high!!) I know I have to be patient! Day by day....I think the frustrating part for me is that I'm still waiting for paperwork to be done for the boy that I'm trying to adopt. I would have thought that it would be done by now since I have been doing this for 8 months now (10 if you count the weeks of classes that I took). I get nervous thinking if I am going to be able to get any time with him this summer. On the other hand I don't mind holding off so that he can be enrolled back to the school that he was going to. It's so complicated! If your thinking of having a child things can be pretty scary but raising a child who is partially grown is (I think) even scarier. Everyday that he is not with me is a day I loose. Already this year he has lost his two front teeth and they have already grown back. He is growing on a daily basis too. He's not so little anymore! I am missing out on a lot! I feel like I will be totally gray when I get any time with him and he will be graduating high school. Every time I think we are coming close to being down with the home study paperwork something else pops up and next things you know it's gonna take another month. Frustrating!! Well for now I guess I will have to focus on getting better and prepared for the day that I can bring him home!!
